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Jul. 18th, 2009

Can't


There are times when I think that I should be hating you but I can't bring myself to. Go figure!

Jul. 17th, 2009

Hot chocolate please


I had a tough week. Almost everything that came up was stressing me out that I have to stay late up night to accomplish a fraction of what I am supposed to submit the next day. There wer even nights when I sleep late because i have to still think and brainstorm, to organize thoughts, to refresh what I had learned for the day and to reflect. Sometimes I think that I am being to harsh to myself because I am forcing myself to edit a bit of my thesis.

Then came a realization yesterday, when we were doing our research at Ateneo, that local studies seems impossible for my topic of interest. Aside form understanding their OPAC and the weather outside, I was disapointed that there were no local studies tackling about Filipino Honesty and Dishonesty. I was actually a fool for focusing too much on hand gestures and facial expressions when I still have truth telling and lying as my variables.

Why have I taken this topic if I don't like this. Right?

Now I am attaching a negative valence towards my thesis when I should be. A part of me is actually telling that it is impossible wit the lack of literature while a big part of me is insisting that I'll be doing fine. Patience.

After a week of sleepless night (?), I thought of rewarding myself with a cup of hot chocolate. Yes rewarding.

Warm my heart. Calm my mind.

 

Jul. 10th, 2009

Children Learn What They Live


"Children Learn What They Live"
By: Dorothy Lay Nolte
1954

If children live with criticism, they learn to condemn.

If children live with hostility, they learn to fight.

If children live with fear, they learn to be apprehensive.

If children live with pity, they learn to feel sorry for themselves.

If children live with encouragement, they learn confidence.

If children live with tolerance, they learn patience.

If children live with praise, they learn appreciation.

If children live with acceptance, they learn to love.

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Do you know where you are coming from?

Jul. 8th, 2009

Writer's Block: Little White Lies

Do you think it's okay to tell little lies about small things to avoid hurting someone's feelings? Or is there no such thing as a harmless lie?


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White lies, harmeless lies, small lies - no matter how you call it, still it is a LIE. In my personal opinion I think there woud be times that telling a lie about small things would make things mre better, though you lied, there is still this side that you were simply concerned as to not hurt another person t tell the truth. However, it all boils down to, in one way or another, sometimes mistrust roots from small lies and despite your effort to protct the other, you still LIED.

Jul. 1st, 2009

Lahat ba talaga ay 'Kalokohan'?



"If you don't like something CHANGE it,
If you can't change it, change the way you THINK about it."

Hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay 'Kalokohan' ang nangyayari. Oo, lahat tayo naghahangad ng pagbabago subalit hindi lahat ng inaasam natin na pagbabago ay madaling makamit. Oo, sawa na tayo. Oo, minsan para bagang wala ng pagasa. Pero di ba't kahit papaano kailangan nating baguhin ang ating perspectibo na nagatibo. Dahil di lahat ay dapat tignan na negatibo.

Actually hindi ko masabi yong gusto kong sabihin, naoverwhelm kasi ako kanina ^^

Jun. 26th, 2009

Golden Nuggets


"Unconsiciously, we choose how we see people.
When we like someone, we are tolerant.
When we don't, we focus on their faults.
It's not other people's persona that determines how we feel about them.
It's our attitude.
The human tendency to PREJUDGE"

Right on. When we do not like someone we think of million reasons to hate them more. We are blinded by searching their flaws and their faults, when in reality people are innately good. It's naturally a matter of perspectives, what I may see on people may not be seen by the other but is does not mean that we have to conform as to how others see things becase we have our own personal view.

Think...

Jun. 25th, 2009

Yet again, another muscle trauma T.T


Gack! My arm musclec feel terribly sore. When I mean terrible, I mean to the point that I can't lather soap when takng a bath!!! Gadamit!!

Ho many muscle trauma shall i endure more?!

Jun. 24th, 2009

Play time no more?

I know you don't wanna read this :P )

Jun. 20th, 2009

YuPi

Note: Post entry for June 19 2009

I can't believe that I woke up early this morning even if I slept at around 2:45 in the morning. Blame me, and my lazy ass for coming up with all the 'good' alibis I could think of just to escape thesis and school stuff. Oh, not to mention I was so fired up to push through a scheduled gimmick yesterday that I forgot reality!

I was all set yesterday. I cancelled everything by making up lies that would save the good soul of mine for skipping such planned event. I declined our President's invite for a sit-down meeting with ADMU and DLSU and a lunch meeting with the PsychSoc EB.

And so, as everything has been set on the evening of Thursday, and all plans were finalized. I woke up firday morning to pack my things up and supposedly edit my paper. Poro, as I could not anymore contain my excitement, I sent my paper to my classmate for submission and went online to play and do unnecessary stuff. Defense mechanism daw!

Katt called me and Ruth sent me a message. Everything was set. So we went.

Feeling a bit akward for reasons I do not know, maybe because I was not able to bring my mp3 or what, we rode our way to MRT for a long train ride. (Wow! How long is long) Nakakaantok talaga kaso mauga ung train so I was not able to sleep for a bit. Nakapikit ako pero alerto din. Alam mo na mabilis ang mga demonyo sa paligid.

Quezon Ave station was there, yeah and in front my eyes was its sign board so we stood up and jumped out of the choochoo train to look for this pink foot bridge which would lead us to a terminal of jeepneys which would take us to our destination. University of the Phlippines, Diliman.

I do not know with you, but it became a habit of mine to keenly survey whichever way is it that I am taking so long as I am not familiar with the place I am going to. And I always sniff for reasons I do not know.

Hot na hot na kong bumaba noon mga panahin na yon kaya sa twing dadaan kami sa building ako parang, 'wait Economics na ba ito?' and to make things worse, parang lahat ng garden don is 'sunken', 'lubog' kaya mejo nataranta na ako.

At yon na, we finally arrived Economics Building and as we were walking our way to the pavement, I saw our beautiful friend in green with a huge back pack. Pakapalan kung pakaalan, nag sit-in kami kahit 15 minutes late na.

To frankly tell you, I was, I think shocked with the classroom setting. Parang ako, 'Wow, university nga to...'

  • Ang laki ng room.
  • Wow the tables
  • Bigatin the topic
  • There were boys!!! Don't get me wrong, medyo namiss ko kasi yung CoEd
  • I was sitting again after four years with Katt and Marc in the same classroom, listening to the professor like we did years ago
  • At yon na natatawa ako. We were passing notes and restraining our giggles.

Then pumunta kami sa baba ng lib to wait for Ruth, the ever early bird. At naroon na siya parang wala lang. At yon na tumwa na kami ng tumawa na parang mga tanga.

As planned, pumunta kami sa isawan to grab five sticks each of isaw, bituka of the manok, courtesy of my friend and Squid balls and Chicken balls courtsy of another friend. Throwing the last pieceof stick was our cue para sa mahabahabang lakaran na di ko naramdaman.



Kath, Ruth and I with sticks of isaw

Ang sarap maglakad. Ang mga jeep, hindi nakikisama, pero okay lang. Ar nauso ang AHiNi. Na pinagtawanan hanggang sa jeep.

Trinoma na, to eat the ever sumptuous Burrito sa Taco Bell with a smell. NR ako don. Katt, no need to apologize, di ko rin nabanggit kasi na natuturnoff ako sa mababahing bagay :) So there, I just took a bite, literally took a bite then I maximized my refillable drink. 3 supersized cups of iced tea AND 1/2 supersized CUP WATER. Tap0os ubo na ko ng ubo sa pagkabusog sa beverage.


Ruth enjoying her choice of Burrito and Katt drowning herself with her refillable drink.


Marc and I enjoying the chuchay pose.

CR. MRT. Hintay. Creepy man beside Katt na pasulyapsulyap. >.< Bwisit yon mamag yon!!! As in. Tapos yun na yung ride nakami. Chikachika at tawanan iba iba ang pinaguusapan.

FX. Text ni Mama. McDo.

Hot Cocoa sakin tapos coffee sa girls tapos giant float kay Marc. Tawa tawa ulit. Hanggang sa kinabahan na ko at napashut up.

Pero pagkauwi ko wala aking nadatnan na galit na magulang. Wala. As in ZERO. Sana pala nagstay pa ko till 12MN!!!

Tapos yon I wracked my nerves by stayiing up till god knows when. I was rummagin our room for a decent paper and troubleshooting the printer problem.

Then dozed off. Thinking how fun it was to be out with friends on a Friday laughing and laughing even if we were not talking.


Ruth, Kath and Marc


Jun. 5th, 2009

summersault

Youthfulness

Note: X-posted in my other journal. And a week earlier.

I just turned twenty less than a month ago and even if I keep on denying to myself that I am kid no more, I have to. Face it. I am a young adult now. I have left steps away from my way of life from when I was still a fresh woman in college and certainly many steps from when I was in my junior years in high school.

Standing from my viewpoint at this moment in time, having my hands touch the feel of work, the weight of growing responsibilities and planning for the future,
I must say that one way of another I am feeling that something is amiss.

I suppose I was taking things to seriously to the point that I could feel my hair starting to turn grey to white, in exaggeration. I could feel as if I am a completely working girl even if I am just in my senior year of college.

It occurred to a few days ago while waiting for work that I am totally missing the things that I used to do.

I missed reading a good book which keeps me imagining even after a day or so of reading it.
I missed experimenting on my pictures using Adobe Photoshop.

I missed listening to music of different genres which makes my head groove.
I missed watching anime series and writing fan fictional stories and of course getting feedback from readers.
I missed drawing and editing them before posting at dA.
I missed watching Supernatural and other TV series that I loved to watch, as well as other movies.
I missed oversleeping and doing chores even if I am too lazy to work my ass out.
I missed hanging out with the family.
I missed spacing out in the comfort of our room during afternoons.

I missed doing such things that I used to do before I turned twenty

To overcome the feeling of missing these that I love to do, I tried to read a Shoujo manga last night, and reading fan fictions several hours ago. To my content, I felt more than satisfied.

I came up with a solution to this. I’d be making time to do the things that I used to do because it became a very important part of my life.

The ‘I’ now, was thanks to what I used to do several months and years ago.

I need to keep myself surrounded with the colors of youth and exchange ideas with people whom I know have the same feeling as mine.

Feel young!


May. 14th, 2009

Scriblings Part 1 - Camlle

 



Camille... )

Apr. 14th, 2009

Are You Mind, Body, or Spirit?

You Are Mind
If you dream it, then you can do it. You are very mentally sharp and strong.
You enjoy challenging yourself both at work and with studies. You love mastering difficult tasks.

You thrive in new environments, even stressful ones. You are able to study everything objectively.
You have a upbeat attitude, and won't be deterred easily. You are open minded and optimistic about the future.

What Temperament Are You?

You Have a Choleric Temperament
You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

Mar. 15th, 2009

Thinking-


I have been thinking fo the past few days --- no, for the past three years. After realizing something that I should have done and somethingthat I should have given much attention and importance to.

T.T.... I guess I am a little to late and lacking an ounce of confidence.... T.T

Jan. 30th, 2009

Writer's Block: Spoilers Below the Cut

Have you ever ruined the ending or given away plot developments in a book, movie, or tv show by telling someone who hasn't seen or read it what happens? Has anyone ever done this to you?


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Nope, never done it I guess. I'm a bit sensitive wit tis. I don't wanna spoilers. But people keep on giving me spoilers and I so hate them!!!

Midterm Grade >> Complacency ByahByah


Luckily, the grades I got for the first half of the semester is very impressive. Yes, andthat shouold be the thing. I can't afford to lose the ace that I have right now, considering my status in the depatment. T.T. The old habit of getting too confident whenever I see what my graes are, i hope would die now!

Life would suck, if I would graduate in another college without the people who lifted me up through tough times. I don't want that to happen. And no, I don;t wanna see mama and papa's disappointed face. NEVER!

I think. i should hit the books hard now. Yes, and now means not mamaya na! Hell!

Next, I had been constantly late for this morning subject that I have, and I am embarassed because despite my tardiness, I was still given the grade that I do not deserve.

Nope, no stresses for the mean time ^^ But I dont wanna take things lightly. I must bite hard!

Now, I am quite excited, I'll be out of town for the next four days! Yebba! Though still school related, isnt that fun.

What I hope for now is that my classmates are also doing well with their endeavor, lalo na friends ko ><

Jan. 28th, 2009

Look at my avatar!!!!

Look at him!!! Look at my avie~

Wahahah!!! Isn't he so cute!!!


Why haven't i thought of this before?!

aber?~

Jan. 15th, 2009

UNO

of hallucinations II


I was planning to, again, stay up late last nigt to edit my paper but opted to not coontinue the plan because, yeah, I was afraid. Moving on, I told our kasama sa bahay about the things that I thought I heard and got a confirmaion that she had also heard that for sometime, as well as my sister and father.

So, all I have to do is ignore the other existence....

Jan. 14th, 2009

of hallucinations???...


I was staying late last night for my paper when I thought I heard someone walk along the short corridor, and also thought that I think I saw someting swiftly passed by my peripheal visions, and then another!!!!

And so, I think I was kinda schizphrenic for this somehwat hallucinations, and yes, auditory and visual,  and supenatural belief that has gotten me to believe.

Gladly the deadline was moved on the 19th!!! Yey!!!

But still have to finish before that date!!!

Heh~

Whatever :)

Jan. 12th, 2009

Writer's Block: On the Bus

one of the most memorable scene that i saw, in a negative way, is that of snatching and sexual harrasment. that is in an uber jampacked transit....

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